25 March 2010

Ms. Gloom & Doom



lately i've felt insane.

change of weather brings change of mood,
and i go from laughing and smiling,
racing through the streets in the sun,
to panicked and moody and REALLY self-doubtful.
it's probably because...


  • it's the last stretch and thoughts of this year ending
    make me wonder what i have and will accomplish.
  • no matter what i eat or drink my stomach makes
    really uncomfortable noises at work.
  • being less avoidant means more interaction with people
    from the past means realizing inadequacies.
  • serious sleep deprivation and oncoming illness leads me to
    FEEL BAD AND OVERTHINK/SECOND GUESS EVERYTHING.

digo, katharine and murray are in FL for ultra right now
and i'm stuck in front of a computer for 80% of the day.
i would scream right now but i have zero privacy.