aimless, disappointed, confused

(@ capital one headquarters; hopeful job candidate, eager to work.)

more bad news: i didn't get the senior art director associate
position with capital one.
i had to endure an overextended interview process,
a recruiter who never initiated any contact whatsoever,
and a terrible period of loneliness, self-doubt, and
an ever-draining bank account with no income.


(@ home, alone without job or local friend network, totally devastated)

what to do?
at this point i can't stand the sight of online forms,
am so tired of mass emails for positions that
don't fit my goals whatsoever.
should i settle for lowered expectations,
lowered wages and a lower value of myself?
with this job failure have i accomplished anything
in the past 2 months since being back?
what am i doing here?

sanderstr5

got these photos via konrad and his Dropbox.
(if you don't know Dropbox get it NOW!)
we use it at work, but it's amazing as a personal tool as well.
between last.fm and dropbox, i barely have time for looking up
bizarre insertions on the internet ;)
anyway...



...looking at these photos,
listening to the Berlin Calling soundtrack,
and thinking of the great meals shared,
really makes me miss Germany already.
two and a half more months before the end!

hidden fees

$311.88 extra charges for the governor's square apartment
where i haven't lived for a long, long time
(the apartment was described as a "filthy unit"!)
and the potential german test i slept through
are not good additions to a rainy day!
(still without functioning bike, no less)