ich habe die Nase voll

jumping ship.
getting the fuck out of potsdamn.
mostly packed already, fleeing tomorrow
and not regretting a single thing.

if i could describe my host family situation in one word
it would be 'trying'

also with this photo:

some nice and pretty things mixed
with disgusting trash and cigarettes.
self-contained in it's own small world
and inactively segregated from the outside.
(i would be the Punica bottle in this metaphor, i think)

i'll take it a step further and say that
i am ready to close the lid on this garbage
and leave the kitchen for good.

sanderstr5

got these photos via konrad and his Dropbox.
(if you don't know Dropbox get it NOW!)
we use it at work, but it's amazing as a personal tool as well.
between last.fm and dropbox, i barely have time for looking up
bizarre insertions on the internet ;)
anyway...



...looking at these photos,
listening to the Berlin Calling soundtrack,
and thinking of the great meals shared,
really makes me miss Germany already.
two and a half more months before the end!

the CONS & PROS

so i need to move to berlin. it's been too ridiculous lately with traveling 2-4 hours a day, sleeping roughly the same amount (!!!) and just feeling like going back to potsdam and the same host family situation is FAR from ideal. moving sucks for sure, but seeing other people's apartments in berlin makes me rethink things... so here's the cons and the pros (rather than pros and con, since i wouldn't be reconsidering the situation if everything was positive and great, right?)

CONS:

• smoky shit smell
  
• sharing bathroom - never shower, no time in morning
  
• 1hr+ travel time each way to/from work, sometimes 2x day to party in Berlin
  
• host family never eats together - Microwave is king!!!
  
• socializing around the televiison - TV waves = brain waves
  
• computer- & South Park-obsessed host father ***doesn't look at me anymore!
  
• total mismatch in personalities & interests
  
• 205 euro rent + only 100 euro stipend (compared to 250 euro stipend when living in a shared apt) to barely live there, barely eat their food, and to have little to no contact with these people
  
• sometimes pissy host sister
  
• host mom badmouthed Ulli!
  
• Bahncard expiring 31.03.10 - no need to pay extra just so i can go to potsdam every day
  

PROS:

• WAS convenient during the university phase
  
• relative privacy
  
• internet connection
  
• food always available
  
• sofa is relatively comfortable
  
• always warm
  
• uni gym membership & proximity
  
• trips with daniel
  
• someone else does the cooking/shopping/cleaning
  

i mean i don't want to make it out to be the worst situation ever, but it'd be nice for a change... a big change for the remainder of my time here. i'm searching for places now!